Sunday, 27 November 2011

27th November 2011

It is not even 12 hours yet since I last walked out of my exam hall for my midsem test they already posted the marks. :D it was quite a nerve-wrecking day than exam studying days for me though.

There's no deserving word ought to say than 'alhamdulillah' doesnt matter if you did or did not do your best. You still gotta be thankful for the marks you got.

It may not be the best, yet good enough for me : ) Allah gave me that much : ) I'm so grateful and again I have to remind myself this will never be a starting point for a comfort zone yet a starting point to be all-out for the upcoming exam. Gotta exert the driving force up to the max level! Sounds hard but it will be all worth it at the end of the day.

Here goes to my batch mates :
Well done all of you! You have tried your best, to those who may not be satisfied with the results, just don't let worries creep into your head. Move on and plan a better one ahead. : )

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Wednesday, 23 November 2011

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I feel better and happier today than yesterday.
Alhamdulillah : D

Friday, 18 November 2011

Random post

I love kids.
Ada gaya dak ada gaya dak jadi mummy : D

This is what you end up doing after you racked your brain for long hours. 
Okay byeee, gotta sleep now : )
Much love.

Thursday, 17 November 2011

Le familia amor

I miss my mom and dad.
I miss talking to them.
I miss Yong too : (

Mama, ayah, someday I will make you two proud of us, you just deserve all the great things in the world. I'm sorry for my wrongdoings, you three are always in my prayers. I love you all so much.


Gottogo. Gotta wake up for Qiam later, insyaAllah. Nights earthling <3

'bismikallah humma ahya wa amutu'
Dengan nama-Mu ya Allah aku hidup dan mati

Just bad : (

I was thinking the other day about the possibility that I’m not a good person afterall, that I may be a really bad person but I’m not aware enough to see that I’m a bad person. Not only would I be a bad person, but I’d be an ignorant bad person. Sigh :'(

I commit sins a lot. Can I get them wiped out?
I have a lot of imperfections. Can I improve them?
I'm not a good person. Can I turn to a better person?
Will people leave/hate me for the imperfections I have?

It's bothering me a lot : (
Ya, Allah give the strength to me, and forgive all my mistakes, Certainly, Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.


I love hugs, seriously.
I love to hug people.
I miss hugging people tightly.
 I am so huggable and lovable : D lol.


With all the grueling studying I go through, the frustration I endure and all the deadlines I somehow make. With all the information I have to absorb like a sponge eventually. May Allah give ease and favour to me. Amin. 

“And whosoever puts his trust in Allah, Allah, sufficient is for him”. (Ath-Thalaq: 33)

Are these the reasons why you want to become a doctor?

I found this image on a friend's page but none of these supports my point to become one.

When I was a kid, I listed a few things I could do when I grow up. And being a doctor was never in my list. I liked Maths, but I hate to do calculations at times. I was just lack of willingness. Whenever people asked me "What is your next goal to achieve?" I would say 'I want to be a CEO someday' But no one gave a damn about it. 

As the years passed by, I got discouraged and wished to just revamp my goal. I want to do something that could give my life a purpose. Something I could contribute to the community and so on. That's becoming a doctor. I imagined of having a high salary, happiness, buying a sports car and living my dream house. I sometimes get a little bit twist when people claimed being a doctor is all your choice if you wish to have all that in hands. Honestly, I never think so.

Being a doctor is not all about money, but it's about your willingness to help people. And I believe becoming a doctor is the most rewarding journey you will ever experience. You will in charge of preserving life, bringing life into this world, saving lives, and diagnosing problems in the lives of many people quickly and effectively. And I'm not saying doctors are so powerful can heal anything, they can only try their best to help prescribing medication not to heal anything! Only God does that : ) Hell big of a responsibility to take on, I believe! Oh, and not only that, lol

 but, you will carry an amazing pride behind being a medical student. Hehehe. You know why?  

Let's just take this situation : everybody has heard about the dinner you're invited to by your fiancé's family where the father grills you about what you do, who you are and what you plan to be. All before even attempting to ask what your intensions were with his daughter.
We all have seen the expression and instantaneous relief and happiness in the father's body language as soon as he hears his daughter is dating someone studying to be a doctor, or better yet IN medical school.
What you may not realize is that this is not just something that many fathers want for their daughters- to marry someone who is successful and career oriented- but many of the fathers whom are or were doctors themselves see an immense flow of respect for the guy whom is studying to enter this field. Hehehe. Okay, enough Elina!!!!!
You can have a high ambition, give your life a purpose, choose a career but the most important thing is to work strenuously and steadily to achieve that ambition and never go adrift. : ) Make sure you'll be able to differentiate between wishful thinkers and day-dreamers : D 
No matter what you are doing, never ever forget to perform your prayers and renew your 'niat' always. : ) 

I miss having those times with loved ones : ( 

Sunday, 13 November 2011

Katyyyy Pewwwyyyy

She's so drop-dead-gorgeous. I lavvv her <3
Oh and this song too : )
Can't stop playing this on repeat.


What the helll lol.
Source from,
It's a must-tab to open! ; )
And another favourite of mine is
: D

one of the terrifically interesting images I have found so far : )

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Incredible Egypt?

Backaches. Exhaustion. Cramped ass. Fatigue sleep. Boredom.

Oh well well well, long hours of a journey from Kuala Lumpur International Airport to Cairo International Airport was a heck one of a trip. The tiredness was beyond words to describe. Felt that my body was encumbered with heavy loads. Movements restricted, I didn't get to do dynamism that much. Tell me who could move/stretch their body on an aircraft? Unless if you are a flight attendant, the movement still restricted to just move forwards and backwards with a specific anatomical position. The crowds on airship made me feel a bit claustrophobic. I slept half-way of a journey, the part-way I killed my time watching movies and and and and gazing around the cabin, I couldn't stop noticing the way people acted. Some of them gave direct attention to the mini LCD, while some of them enjoyed catching sight of every corner of the aircraft, and half of them wished for just a nap but ended up hibernated themselves throughout the journey. Lol.

Time just passed like a dust wiped by the wind. I realized the plane was about to touch down when the lead  cabin crew announced upon landing and I could see the flight attendants remain stationed at exits. 15 minutes took off to keep calm. and Finally passengers disembarked the plane. Oh-uhh I finally gasped for air! Gladly reached at Bahrain International Airport for transit. Stayed overnight at a hotel. The weather was too cold yet quite refreshing. I couldn't stop shivering to the blasting climate.

I was quite stunned by the amazing land of Bahrain City. It is considered to be one of the most superb natural beauties of its own capital, Manama. Although, Bahrain is the smallest city, its astonishing beauties can never be a let down. The place captivated much and made me feel outta this world. I wish I could spend longer bouts travelling around the city, but time paced so much faster than ever, we already had to leave for Cairo.

Another few more hours on the airplane before arriving, I had nothing beneficial to do but bedtime : ) Good enough sleep I must say as it took about few times for my friend to wake me up.

So, here we were, in Cairo International Airport. It didn't measure up to my expectations. But, I couldn't outrageously put overall assumptions about it yet. I might be wrong. 2 and half hours of journey from Cairo to Mansoura by bus really no fun. The surroundings didn't capture my attention much, probably because of the long-haul traveling contributed exhaustion which totally brought down my mood to even look around. : (

We reached Mansoura around 9.30pm, in the back of my mind I always thought Mansoura is a far-out place, but I was wrong. It isn't that kind of poverty-stricken place. It is just nice and convenient to study. I'm hoping for upcoming great days with new people here.

p/s : A great start to learn deeper about other people's culture.

Saturday, 5 November 2011

Deep down

Today is my last day in Penang. I need to do a last-ditch attempt to make sure all the prime stuff orderly equipped before leaving tomorrow. It's hard, I feel that my feet are frozen to scared and unmovable. I have had this feeling to go or not to go, But this is all about my future. The future I have always had imagined myself as I would like to be, doing what I want to do, and I'm about to take one step towards my dream. now I'm packing for that. Things are well-packed, but in terms of mind and soul, I honestly am not mentally prepared for it. Time flies so fast. I still remember when I told a friend of mine I'm leaving this October and she said 'Lama lagi, ada few more months to go' She somehow has taken my thought of leaving soon away. Yet now, it's a different story, all I have got is less than 24 hours to leave.

The hardest thing to do is to leave people you love. The worth-remembering memories I had with them, the pieces of my heart I left for them, it doesn't matter how often you meet or never meet or you only cyberchat with them, still it puts impact on you when it comes to the people you love. I am easily drowning with emotions when I reminisce every moment of it. Sometimes I get carried away with my feelings but that's just me : (

So, I woke up at 5 am, I did not really sleep well last night, i felt mind-interfering somehow made me harder to sleep. : / Again, I did a final check. And At 7am in the morning, we headed to KL. Along the way, I had this mixed-up emotions. I couldn't take so much notice of how I feel. I've come at a point of knowing nothing how to prevent emotions from arising. And too much of 'what ifs' on my mind.

What if I don't feel ease when I reach there?
What if I couldn't stop feeling homesick and couldn't face the emotional impacts for missing too much my family?
What if the people there are not as good as people in Malaysia?
What if this and that?

I was just too overwhelmed with my supererogative thoughts. : / Hamstrung by fear and trials : /
In my car, I spent most of my times talking to my mom and dad. There were times I couldn't stop tears from rolling down. That's how emotional I could be :3 I cried real hard, dude! Haha. Such a cry baby. Hehe. Its true what most people say, if you cry alot, the tendency for you to doze off is easier than ever. So, I fell asleep. It wasn't a sufficient sleep, yet it was good enough to just ease your mind and rest your eyes for a spell. I felt just calm.

Reached our hotel roughly about 12pm. Had lunch with the family. Felt really good. Cause I believe a well-spent day is a day with your family. : )

My daylight time ended at 1am, was half-aslept and body was barely functional. Gotta hit the sack.


Wednesday, 2 November 2011

Burppppdayyyy y'ol!

Today. 30th September. I turn a year older whenever this date comes. I go by the age of 19. Sounds old? But I'm neither one of the old people, I'm just a recycled teenager : D Everyone has a version of this story on their birthday. However, the main storyline remains the same.

I went out dinner with my family which was on the night before my birthday. Mom and dad acted as if nothing worth would happen on 30th. It's either they planned something secretly for me or they totally forgot about it. Hmm :'(

Time clocked at 12am, I received lots of enlightening birthday wishes from my fam members and friends. Wishes are just enough for me. It's like people are praying good things for you. : ) Alhamdulillah, I'm still breathing at this point of age, I still have my loved ones around me, I still can see this beautiful world. I'm too grateful for words. : )

One thing I noticed about the wishes, was most of em were hoping for me to get married fast! Haha. Omg! This is hilarious. I mean oh come on I'm only 19, I myself never expect to get hitched this young? But why not? Haha. I don't know why but I always dream a marriage : ) But, cut it off Ena, for god sake you are only 19! Gosh!

And not forgotten for those who bought me pressies! : ) I love gifts and surprises! For 2 consecutive years, I always had a surprise from my good friends, this time was a bit different, I didn't feel like having joy on my birthday, I have two days left before I push off to Egypt :' ( It saddens me a lot, I have no idea how to put into words to utter my feelings : / Only Allah knows.

Anyway, thanks to all of you for the wishes! Mean so much to me, May Allah bless all of you.

Lotsofloveeeee people!

Unpredictable feelings.

I was trying to clarify to someone about my mixed up feelings today...but it's hard to explain them to someone else when you don't completely understand them yourself. ;/ my mind is running hard, body's feeling weak. I am weighing down with the constant worries, guilt, fears and hell lot more.
Is it because I only have few days more to stay in Malaysia or is it about some people who have been really frustrating lately? Or is it both? All I know is I'm sick of this feeling. I'm mixed up. :'( 

Ya Allah, kuatkanlah hamba mu ini, Amin.

P/S  : I haven't even started anything yet to pack. =,='